So Totally Tired
Something about/from the last three weeks has suddenly caught up to me and thrown a bunch of big rocks at my head or something. I am sooo tired. I am not that confused about why, it's been a long few weeks and I should expect to be tired. Two tough races, two trans-continental flights, erratic sleep pattern, stressing about one thing or another... But really life would be nicer if I weren't so tired!
If I weren't so tired I'd be working on some art this week. I'd have gone for a ride yesterday. I'd have swum this morning. I'd go for a run, I really want to. Also if I weren't so tired I wouldn't be tempted to fall back into a $5 a day Starbucks habit. I might not have convinced myself that dropping $200 on a new iPod was a good idea. I'd be writing all the overdue emails I want to send to friends, instead of sitting here re-reading blogs and reading race websites I've read 20 times already and dinking around on facebook oh and leaving incoherent comments on peoples' blogs.
Also I wouldn't be watching TMZ on TV!? Who really cares about Paris Hilton! God! But getting up and looking for the remote and picking out something else is just way too involved.
If I weren't so tired I'd order a GRE study guide and start working on practice tests. I'd be reading The Economist instead of the ever-disappointing Inside Triathlon. I'd remind myself that I am smart, at least I used to be anyway.
I'd be daydreaming of something more exciting than a nap.
I'd also be working on my swim, getting faster.
Bleh. Maybe tomorrow I will get some of this stuff done. Now I am just eking by, grateful at least that it's no longer thundering and lightning-ing outside. The storm scared Kitty.
If I weren't so tired I'd be working on some art this week. I'd have gone for a ride yesterday. I'd have swum this morning. I'd go for a run, I really want to. Also if I weren't so tired I wouldn't be tempted to fall back into a $5 a day Starbucks habit. I might not have convinced myself that dropping $200 on a new iPod was a good idea. I'd be writing all the overdue emails I want to send to friends, instead of sitting here re-reading blogs and reading race websites I've read 20 times already and dinking around on facebook oh and leaving incoherent comments on peoples' blogs.
Also I wouldn't be watching TMZ on TV!? Who really cares about Paris Hilton! God! But getting up and looking for the remote and picking out something else is just way too involved.
If I weren't so tired I'd order a GRE study guide and start working on practice tests. I'd be reading The Economist instead of the ever-disappointing Inside Triathlon. I'd remind myself that I am smart, at least I used to be anyway.
I'd be daydreaming of something more exciting than a nap.
I'd also be working on my swim, getting faster.
Bleh. Maybe tomorrow I will get some of this stuff done. Now I am just eking by, grateful at least that it's no longer thundering and lightning-ing outside. The storm scared Kitty.
Labels: enjoy the blog, random
posted by Courtenay at 5/21/2008
8 Comments:
*snap* so true.
i've felt really dragging and bleck too, so I have not advance my career/life/triathlon in anyway in the last few days.
it's ok
I'm with you. Something is definitely "going around". It's as if everyone has been too busy with everything lately. Damn being a "Type A"!
I moved two weeks ago. I've been getting hammered by projects at work for the past 3 months. I'm just on the edge... I can't get enough sleep. I'm so tired that I don't want to get off the couch at night and by the time I do, I'm almost crawling to bed. Then I don't want to get up in the morning, AT ALL.
So I talked to my boss this morning: I'm taking a mental health holiday, starting next week. I'm hoping that a week and a half of just taking my dog for walks, riding, and sleeping will help me realign and chill out!
Awwwww, Court!!
You sound like MEEEE on Monday of this week! Seriously - everything you said echoed my sentiments Monday after I got off work.
I.was.so.tired.
I hate thinking of all the e-mails I have to catch up on, all the things I could be doing to be productive, filing all of the mail that's piled up on my file drawer, etc. and then wondering (like you) why I keep re-reading the same stuff on the internet and being completely UNproductive.
I also had planned to do a short run and lift weights.
But unlike you, instead of daydreaming of a nap, I thought "oh, I"ll just lay down for 15 MINUTES...QUICK POWER NAP AND I'M UP AND GOING TO THE GYM, YES I AM!!!"
2 hour nap was what it turned out to be. I hadn't gone to the gym. I hadn't gone to the grocery to fill our very VERY depleted cupboard and refrigerator, and I still felt like I could sleep 10 more hours.
I mourned the loss of my workout and moved on. And I feel so much better since then. :)
Anyway, after saying all that - just saying - I feel ya. And I love reading the Economist too. :)
Hope you feel more awake tomorrow!!!
I feel your pain! I am a recreational athlete who trains like a competitive athlete, running, riding and gyming 15-22hours a week, five two a days a week and working 40-55 hours a week. I go through periods of utter exhaustion alternating with periods of feeling invincibile. I'm not sure if it is because I don't take enough planned rest days and my body just craps out from overtraining or maybe it is my version of getting sick and rundown...maybe it is hyopmania or maybe hormones. I don't know but it sucks. I usually push through, but this time am giving in and resting a bit. I'm reminding myself of the purpose of this rest when I start to feel guilty and lazy. Hope to feel better soon. Good luck getting your kick back too. Keep posting your progress and recovery advice for your fans.
Rest up! Sleep if your friend!! I hope you snap out of it and are back to your zippy self soon!
Hi hi! Someone recently told me that if I have enough energy to read a book, I'm well on my way to recovery. So - if you can do art, read The Economist, study for GREs - then you wouldn't be so tired. In the mean time, embrace the TMZ, mindless TV, blogs, and race websites. You've earned it!
Thanks for the CD - SO SWEET! AWESOME! I'll be getting you back shortly..... ;)
You either have a case of the Mondays or you're tired. Stop thinking and sleep, all good pros nap. If you don't believe me, call Ben, he sleeps about as much as your cat.
update for anonymous and others who are curious: i am feeling better! sleeping for 10 hrs a night works wonders.
looking back to before i started racing, when i was exercising with the intent of being fit and looking good and not with the intent of beating the panties off anyone, i think it was much harder for me to rest and to take care of myself than it is now. i ran myself into the ground so many times, and i remember many phone calls to my annoyed and frustrated mom, basically asking her permission not to work out that day because i was falling asleep at the wheel. now i am much better at monitoring my body's signals and remembering that rest makes me stronger.
from the standpoint of working out for fitness, i think there is more gray area - the goal isn't necessarily to get stronger or to be in good form for a specific race, so it's so much easier to slip into a fear pattern of OMG i am going to get fat/lazy/etc, at least in my experience. but after switching to a periodized approach to my workouts, i notice that i am much leaner and more fit and happier with myself and my lifestyle - the rest weeks allow me to reach higher levels for sure, and I don't get bored anymore with my workouts. My first year of bike racing I didn't take rest weeks, the second year I did and suddenly I was winning and improving and getting muscle tone. But I *never* would have come up with the idea on my own!
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